1.2.19

It’s a New Year. I love fresh starts and setting intentions for growth and change. Here are a few things I want to practice and cultivate skill, comfort and ability with in 2019 and beyond.

– Drawing/painting/lettering…I enjoy this so much and have stepped away from it as a practice over the last few years. I’m not a skilled artist but creative expression with a pen in hand is a part of who I am, and a part I have been neglecting.

– Reading actual books and newspapers. I love to read and this is also something I’ve stepped away from with consistency. I admire my friends who set these lofty goals to read x number of books a year. I want to do the same. Most of the books I do read are about running and training which is great but I want to be captivated by stories and the beauty of prose.

– Writing from my most vulnerable places AND being okay with it being messy and choppy for a while. I need to remember I do this for me. The act of writing helps me sift through my feelings and reflect and dream. I share it here because doing so feels brave to me, and I also value the connections made here so much. But worrying that it’s not well-written or that what I am sharing is boring or not helpful etc etc holds me back from being open or even writing at all.

– Racing. I mean really putting myself to the test. I play it safe most of (as in almost ALL) the time. I do this in so many areas of my life. It’s not that I think that is bad to be careful, I believe it’s a good trait, yet I also see and feel I take it too far. I am just so risk averse and I think it holds me back from fully experiencing what’s possible and from fully feeling things.

There are more, and I will write about them later. This is a good start.

My friend Liz is coming over soon for a sunrise run! I’m so grateful we will start our day together in this way. It has been a long time since we’ve been in a routine. My toe is healed/healing (it is good enough to run on but still feels totally weird) and I am striving to get back in shape (tough stuff!). Having a friend to share the miles with makes it so much more fun, and I know if we weren’t meeting this morning I would probably get stuck in Procrastination Station 🚉

Happy Wednesday! Happy second day of 2019.

Marathon Training – Week 2!

Ack, it’s Wednesday! … and I meant to write this on Sunday but somehow time is flying and there just isn’t enough of it. ‘Tis the season, right?!

Last week was a good week. During the chaos of what seems to be life for me (and everyone else!) these days, running and training for a marathon is helping me feel grounded and connected to my inner rhythm, organized in my brain and relaxed and healthy in my body. Truth be told, I see my “busy” as a blessing and know that I am lucky to have a life so full of “to dos,” … when I am overwhelmed I try to remind myself of that.

This time last year, my foot was hurting me so much and I was feeling lost as to what the heck was happening in my body. I decided to NOT train for Boston 2017 and ceased attempting to run a single step indefinitely – until my foot was healed (which, by the way, wasn’t until halfway through the year in April). I am thankful to be in a very different position now. 💗 Continue reading

Marathon Training – Week 1!

Last week was my first week of training for the Wrightsville Beach Marathon, which will take place on March 17, 2018! I decided that I would coach myself for this one, and am really just so thankful and excited to be doing so. It has been a long and often bumpy road to get to this point, taking twists and turns I never imagined (both in my running and in my life!), but all of it has been ultimately just what I needed to get myself to a better place – a healthier, stronger and HAPPIER place – especially the hardest parts of the journey. That’s just the way it goes, right? 😊

In March of this year, I had a Tenex procedure on my left foot to remove scarring from a partial tear to my plantar fascia that was the result of a cortisone shot I was given the previous October for some pesky plantar fasciitis, which came on the tail end of a pretty long and rough road of overtraining and adrenal health issues. When I finally got the green light to run again in early April, I decided to enlist the help of my good friend and running coach Mary to guide me on that phase of my journey. Not just to keep me healthy and injury-free, but also to be there as a pillar of support and encouragement. She was awesome and I loved working with her! We began with a run/walk program and gradually over time I was running more and walking less and eventually all-out running and training for a half marathon! In November I ran my half marathon and felt so strong and happy – it was truly amazing and everything I prayed it would be. At that point I decided that I was ready to coach myself again, to trust myself with my own training and fly solo towards my next dream. And here I am, training for what will be my 20th marathon this spring! Continue reading