I’m so incredibly excited. So absolutely sure that this is the right thing to do, that I am ready for it. So grateful and happy to be feeling the way I do about it on every level – physically, emotionally and mentally. Yet also – sort of stunned that it is really happening. I didn’t go into this training cycle planning on two fall marathons. I think of myself as a pretty laid back and let-it-loose kind of person, yet at the same time I am fully aware that I’m completely Type A and conservative when it comes to making plans and following rules. I like to be in control as much as I like to totally let go and be along for the ride.
On Saturday morning I will show up to the start line with a plan: to run hard and put it ALL out there. To trust myself and to let things happen as they will — one mile at a time.
I believe in my heart of hearts that Saturday will be a very good day. That it can’t not be. I am so well trained for this. I know the marathon. I LOVE running and racing. I am not putting specific time goal pressure on myself though. Really, I just want to run to the best of my ability. To run the race I have trained for. To not give up. To ENJOY it. To pour myself into this experience. To celebrate the journey – all that is behind me and all that I did to get to this moment, as well as all of the possibilities that are ahead of me. I want to be present, to soak it all in, and to keep a grateful perspective.
Do I think it’s possible for me to crush my current PR on Saturday? You bet. But I know that is not ultimately what will bring me JOY on race day. I think of a new PR as icing on my marathon cake – if I know that I did my very best and that I gave it my all, I will be happy no matter what the time on the clock says. I’ve run enough marathons and lived long enough to understand this about myself. I would rather try as hard as I can and fall flat on my face, than not show up to this completely. Disappointment in myself almost always comes from lack of effort. I am going to be ALL IN on Saturday. There is no other way to approach this as far as I’m concerned.
So today and tomorrow I will hydrate like it’s my job and try to rest and relax as much as a busy mom of three possibly can. I’m also limiting my fiber intake (a SERIOUS challenge for this vegetarian, salad-and-broccoli loving person!) because I really really really do not want to have GI issues be a part of this race experience. I’m getting ready to pack for this amazing adventure and I am just so excited about it!
Are you racing this weekend? If so, how are you feeling!?