looking back

This morning I dug back into the archives of my blog, and pulled up the posts from exactly one year ago.  As I read through them, tears literally filled my eyes.  Tears of gratitude, tears of amazement, tears of joy.

I have come a long way.  No matter what the outcome is of my race on Saturday, I have a lot to be proud of, and so much to be thankful for.

This week one year ago, I was 6 weeks postpartum and every attempt to run was a fight.  Every run left me feeling achy and wiped out.  My SI joint was out of whack, my hips and my tailbone hurt day and night.  I was tired.  My core muscles were stretched out and weakened.  I was scared, yet determined.  I believed that as long as I was smart and listened to my body, as long as I took my time and was patient with myself, I would be able to run pain-free and happily again.   It was not easy.  Here are a few of my favorite quotes from these posts:

I am going to go back to the basics, start from square one, with my training.  I am going to be POSITIVE and believe in myself and be patient on this journey.  This experience will make me stronger in more ways than one.  I am going to reclaim my body – my strength – my fitness.

In my experience the best, most wonderful things in life don’t ever seem to come without hard work.  A little (ok sometimes a lot) of pain.  Sacrifice.  So I will hold my head up high, not give up – not ever – and I will believe in myself.  I will trust that there is a reason for the struggle and that it will all be worth it.

I am not a quitter and I am not alone.  I will give this the good fight and be stronger because of it!!!  I WILL NEVER QUIT. 

Here is something that I know for sure.  Becoming a runner is HARD.  Whether you are just getting started or are getting back into it after pregnancy, an injury or time off for whatever reason.  It is hard.  But if we do not give up, if we believe in ourselves and if we are patient, if we listen to our bodies and keep at it, WONDERFUL things can happen.  We will awaken amazing things within us.  We will discover so much about ourselves and what we are capable of.  It will be more than we ever would have dared to dream.

Do not give up on your dreams, in running or in life.  Do not put a limit on what your potential is.  Take it one day at a time, and be open to all of the possibilities.  Have the courage to keep going, and know that you are not alone.  Watch your story unfold.

If you are interested in reading some of these archives, go back to March of 2011.  Here are a few links to some of my favorite posts:

A Plan
Go Girl

7 thoughts on “looking back

  1. This is SO inspiring!! Yes, you have come a LONG way in a year! I love going back through my old posts too for the same reasons. I am always encouraged when I see how I've grown not only as a runner but in every other part of my life. Our youngest babies must be around the same age. Last year at this time I had an 8 week old. One year sure changes things!

    I wish you the best on Saturday!! 🙂

  2. Great reflective moment. Quite inspirational! Really impress with all that you've done, and all that you are. It goes to show with proper planning and commitment to the plan, it all pays off. And however you do this saturday, just remember to enjoy it (& I know you will). Btw, burn some rubber:)

  3. I love this post, Jess…the drastic improvement in your run times is simply amazing…You have SO much to be proud of…I am so excited for you this weekend…you have put in the hard work, worked through the pain, and never quit =) Good luck! Wish I could be there to cheer you on but am looking forward to your tweets and recap of your PR race! xoxo

  4. I read all three of your old posts. They really speak to me at this juncture of non-running, especially since it was an SI issue for you, too. I would be so grateful for a 40-minute slow run right now–but I will follow your example and be patient. It's going to reward you tomorrow, and it will ultimately reward me–I don't know when, but I know it will. Thanks for the wise words, and, again, best of luck and enjoyment tomorrow.

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