surrendering…with goals

2010 was quite a year.  When I think back to where I was exactly one year ago and all that I was envisioning for the year ahead … I never would have guessed  that I would be pregnant for most of the year.  I set goals for myself last year that had to do with embracing my life as it was – without a third child – gaining the courage to believe in myself and to invest in me.  I set running goals and personal goals.  I became a certified RRCA running coach and a Power Pilates instructor.  I started my own business engaging in my creative side.  The idea behind these things was to make a conscious effort to look closely at my heart and do things that I believe in, that make me a happier person.  That make me a better mother, wife, sister and friend.

I did them.  The wheels were set in motion and it was scary and exciting all at the same time.  Then one week after I got my Pilates certification I found out that I was pregnant.  What a blessing!  What a life-changer!  Everything in my world completely changed in that instant and now I am less than 4 weeks from my due date, heading into another new year full of possibilities, blessings and wonder.  I am stunned and speechless.

I love a new year.  I know that the opportunity to make changes in your life is always there, but the new year is just such a ripe and sweet moment to really reflect and dream.  I am a dreamer…

On this very first day of 2011 though, I surrender.  I surrender with hope and trust.  My heart tells me that what I really want for 2011 is to achieve B A L A N C E.  To provide love and comfort to my children – all three of them – and to my husband – while not losing myself.  To make myself as much of a priority as I do the rest of my family.  I know this will be hard.  I don’t think I can do it without running.  Running is a key to my happiness.  It gives me my “me-time.” It makes me healthy on every level – physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally.  I want to look each day head on as it comes and try not to jump ahead beyond that too much.

With all that said though, I will have running and racing goals.  Setting and achieving them is part of why I love the sport so much.  At this point though I’m not going to set time goals for myself.  I might readjust that as the year goes on, but for now I just don’t think it’s realistic since I don’t know what it will be like to regain my fitness after this baby is born.  I plan to train for and run Marine Corps Marathon in 2011.  I want to run a 10 miler around my 35th birthday in April (either Cherry Blossom or GW Parkway Classic).  I want to run at least one half marathon this year.

My baby is due in less than 4 weeks now.  I am so excited…there simply are no words.  My heart is bursting with joy, gratitude and anticipation.

To 2010, thank you for many lessons learned and blessings bestowed.  2011, I am ready for and open to all that you have to offer.

Happy New Year, everyone!

2 thoughts on “surrendering…with goals

  1. Happy New Year and good luck with the 3rd! I got in the lottery for the Cherry Blossom this year!! It will be my first 10M. My training starts Monday!!

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