life amazes me. i am trying really hard these days to let go, to be positive and to trust that things will find their way of working out and that all will be good. this is definitely not always so easy for me, BUT i have been putting myself out there, going to my edge and finding that it is opening my heart to a slew of wonderful possibilities.
we have to get a new car in the next few months. we simply cannot fit another person (not matter how small they are!) in either of the cars that we currently own. we haven’t had a car payment since i stopped working a few years ago and having to add this to our budget was seriously stressing me out. i just did not know how it was going to be possible to swing it with our current income and expenses. well, i decided a few weeks ago that i was just NOT going to worry anymore. i couldn’t…it wouldn’t help things to be a stress-freak over them. then last week i had a lightbulb shine bright in my head and i thought why don’t we look into a refinancing and see if that might help? well, we explored this and now it looks like it is going to save the day and we are going to be able to afford a new car without feeling incredibly stressed! hooray! thank you for prayers answered waaaay beyond my biggest hopes. we are actually going to get a new car AND reduce our monthly expenses by $20! wow.
there is a space that i can go to when life is feeling out of control…it is a peaceful spot in my being that settles me down and opens me up. i get there most easily when i am running, when i am practicing yoga, and when i am just out in nature. sort of “stilling” myself through movement. i’ve been finding it more and more difficult to really run to get there, but something wonderful is happening during my pregnancy…i am getting there walking, run/walking, running slower, and doing yoga…and i know it is all going to be ok, probably more than ok, and i am grateful.
on a different note, i’m really looking forward to this weekend. tomorrow morning i’m going to my first prenatal yoga class and then having a fun day with my family. sunday morning is long run day for my client! he is doing his first 20 miler in preparation for MCM. since i’m not able to run all 20 miles with him, i’m planning to run the first 5 miles with him and the last 5 miles with him. it’s my hope that my company on both ends of his run will help make this run a positive experience for him. this will be the farthest he has ever run. i’m so excited to be on this journey with him as his coach and comrade. it is a true gift!
i hope everyone has a great weekend. for those of you that are running, i will be thinking of you and sending you happy-run vibes!